"I Am A Mannyac"

by Heidi

January 16, 2000

I am--I'm a Mannyac and when you, whenever you two go to the lighthouse and I sense Manny lovin', I can't just turn myself into some sort of TWV clone with no feelings and no desires. I just--I can't do that.

You know, when you--you smile those *smiles* at each other and undress each other, you--you rip his belt right out of his pants and you spill champagne on her and sip it off and I'm--I'm sitting on the couch, pretending to be only vaguely curious or interested or whatever, but that's not what I'm doing.

I--I'm obsessing over you. I'm trying not to, but I am. I do. I am a Mannyac and when you climb into bed together, beside each other, always touching, always touching, I sit there in awe, staring at the TV, aware of everything you're doing, of how you kiss, how many times you kiss, where you kiss, and it takes every ounce of my being to not faint dead away from lack of oxygen.

I care about my Manny. I desire more Manny lovin'. I want lots more Manny!